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Letting go. 

I hate it. 

I like to have my plan set out, my journey mapped, my goals clear and concise...each move I make leading to my ultimate dreams. 

You guessed it. 

Exhausting. 

Why? 

Because no one really knows what they want. 

Or at least I don't. 

My plans change as fast as my taste in clothes. My dreams take different forms weekly—daily. My goals take different forms as I grow and experience new things. 

And that's how it's supposed to be. 

As we experience things, as we meet people, see things, and learn and grow, our values change. Our values become stronger—some more than others.

And as this happens, we weigh the options of our futures. 

What do we want? 

What will make us happy? 

The thing about these questions, for me, is that I don't know the answer. 

I want lots of things. I would be happy in many places. I would be happy to start snowboarding and I would be happy to start skiing. 

So how do we choose? 

I think I need to start asking myself, "what do you want to do next?"

Because the truth is, no choice will be a bad one, because we will grow and learn through each experience made. 

So what, I don't know EXACTLY what I want. 

That's because I'd be happy with a lot of things. 

And I think that's okay.

I think that the not knowing, that's part of the fun. 

So, what do you want to do next? What excites you right now? 

What will help you with your goals, yes, but most importantly, what will allow you to live a full life now? 

What do you want to do next? 

I personally am kind of unsure, and I'm finally okay with that.